Fuckin' up (Part 1)

Fucking up, I been fucking up, damn I’m fucking up
Never tried enough but always cried when I get fucking stuck
Life would throw me opportunities and I would fucking duck
Benefit of being down is you know what the fuck is up
Fuck it then, now I’m on some other shit
Fuck you and yo mother shit, dubbing shit Ed Lover shit
Fuck that bottle popping and that clubbing shit
Bitch I been busy fighting against the man I’m on some undercover brother shit
Trapped in mediocrity and ain’t see an escape
Never saw myself complacent, I thought poverty was fate
I remember losing focus, days I wasn’t seeing straight
Saw myself as an inferior, I wasn’t seeing grat
Broke and battered from th world and so I started bleeding hate
Thinking how to save myself when even hero’s need a cape
Never tried to pull a double on the days I needed breaks
Didn’t want to go and get it, rather sit around and wait
Under strict demands, stressed I need a Xan
My mind in a jam, feel like son of sam
Thought I was the man but was ambitious with no plans
World was on my shoulders thought I had it in my hands
Wanted what was mine, but hate to work and hate to grind
I had homies wasting time, even worse, was wasting mine
Should’ve put in work to climb, now I’m tight because I’m fucking stuck
Sat around for nothing much, damn I’m really fucking up