Need to Change

It's five thirty three,
I'm awake and my bed is all covered in sweat,
I can't sleep,
and there's blood on my sheets.
Yeah she likes it rough,
but I don't think that she likes the things that I love,
I need more,
than she wants to give. No-o-o
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
but I'm fucked in the head,
I can't break,
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
I stopped blaming me,
now I blame god for my ways that you see
I'm a slave,
to my self loathing brain
Never thought I'd see a girl like you in this place,
where men are like dogs, and the girls dread the chase,
I can tell,
You're just numbing the pain.
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
but I'm fucked in the head,
I can't break,
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
but I'm stuck in my ways,
it's a shame
I know, yeah I know that i need to change,
I just needed a fix,
guess my timing was right,
you had just joined the mix,
I was sold,
and I needed a taste.
Didn't have to put a lot of work into this girl,
she saw my contentions and gave me world,
I'm in love,
But I will fuck this up,
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
but I'm fucked in the head,
I can't break,
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
but I'm stuck in my ways,
It's a shame,
I know, yeah I know that i need to change,
I know that I need to,
Why are you crying,
I'm not like your last man I don't give a damn
Why're you still trying,
run back to him now,
I'm sure he'll understand.
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
but I'm fucked in the head,
I can't break,
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
I know, yeah I know you want me to change,
but I'm stuck in my ways,
It's a shame,
I know, yeah I know that i need to change