In The Dark

Some nights I lie in forced awakeness
My thoughts won’t let me go
A sleep like death has claimed the world outside
The silence reshapes my solitude, from a refuge to a prison
Distractionless, nowhere to hide
Aloneness holds the mirror
I see things I just can’t work through
Some things you’ll never shine any light into
Like how to read what will be, from what has been
Like what’s in store for me, and you
I wonder what my life will be, what lies ahead for the people close to me?
How can I make my peace with uncertainty -- in a sea of risk, swim with
serenity?
Some nights my thoughts drag me to a cold, cold place: the dark side of
mortality
Who will be the next to go -- their light blown out forever, in that merciless
finality?
Lives are running novels; at times you read, at times you write
The choice of which to do might keep you awake at night
Should I just accept or act against this pressing moment
Should I run for cover or stand and fight?
I wonder what my life will be, a public failure or success in obscurity?
How can I make my peace with uncertainty -- in a sea of risk, swim with
serenity?
I wonder what my life will be, what lies ahead for you and me?
Can I make my peace with uncertainty? I wonder what my life will be: I wonder: