Cheap Seats

Why is no one awake right now
I’ve been making myself sick
I keep throwing up in the basement
At least I’m getting something out
I’m taking turns spilling guts onto paper
And spilling guts onto the ground
So I wrote a couple pages out
And I tried to lay down
I wrote a couple pages out
And tried to lay down
But I don’t sleep
I just lay here and think
And let every little thing
Cave in on me
Tell me I’m not drowning
Cause I can’t breathe
This isn’t what I wanted
This isn’t who I’m supposed to be
Why am I still awake right now
I stopped drinking coffee
But I don’t think it helped
I’m sick of always getting anxious and driving around
Gas isn’t getting cheaper
And there’s nowhere to go in this town
So I wrote a couple pages out
And I tried to lay down
I wrote a couple pages out
And tried to lay down
But I don’t sleep
I just lay here and think
And let every little thing
Cave in on me
Tell me I’m not drowning
Cause I can’t breathe
This isn’t what I wanted
This isn’t who I’m supposed to be
I need to figure myself out
I need to pick up all these pieces
There’s a bigger picture here
And someday I’m gonna see it
And I’m sure it’s fucking gorgeous
It has to be
This is just a smudge in the corner
These are just the cheap seats