Eventually

When I was only three
I used to dream
About a girl
Hand in hand
She’d run from all of the monsters with me
Then I grew up
And all of the monsters got bigger
And she never showed up
It’s so hard without you here
I’m so dependent, dear
I need you to hold me together
But you’ll show up eventually
And I’ll wait for you forever
Adolescence left me buckled at the knees
But I picked myself up and tried to teach myself to be happy
I came to expect so many things that would happen to me
I built up a lifetime in my head; a perfect little fantasy
It helped to have something to look forward to
It helped to believe that I was waiting for you
But you can only wait so long until it all seems pointless
And I spent too much time ignoring the problems
Just waiting for someone else to come and fix this
It’s so hard without you here
I’m so dependent, dear
I need you to hold me together
I’ll give you another year
I’ll just avoid my fears
And wait for you to come make it better
Cause you’ll show up eventually
And I’ll wait for you forever