Refusing

I’m still refusing to hate
I’m still refusing my first love
I’m still refusing the dating
I’m still refusing doing riots
Dark and webs above…
I’m still refusing the swearing
I’m still refusing the tripe soup
I’m still refusing late comings
I’m still refusing loudly white
Shocks in black shoes…
I’m still refusing untruth
I’m still refusing unpleasant visitors
I’m still refusing to get bankrupt
I’m still refusing be ill
I’m still refusing the hitch-hike
I’m still refusing to sleep for a while
I’m still refusing the waiting
I’m still refusing be proud and
Make artificial smile…
I’m still refusing the hair cut
I’m still refusing useless plea
I’m not refusing you but
You’re still refusing yourself
And in meantime loosing me…