Did I Mention I'm a Hypocrite?

I’ve gone through everything a thousand times but every single worry’s still
alive
A phase turns to decades now I’m stuck in the past again. Will this end?
Wide eyed and feeling alive I’ll reach out for you hoping you will always
follow through
Now I’ll take a step back, look towards my past in hopes this isn’t it
Was there really any indication that there’s something left?
I hope that this is the end of the places I’ll go so I’ll be with you again
Wake up. I’ve created a nightmare that never seems to quit
This infatuation is concentrated on all of the times that we missed
This lack of you must end soon
I hope that this is the end of the places I’ll go so I’ll be with you again
Your beauty consumes me and I’ll wait my whole life just to have you
Let it be
Why wait for the end of this story the chapters are boring and always unfolding
the same
I can’t express how much I wish this could change but I know it all goes down
in flames
(If there’s still a glimmer of hope I refuse to let this all go down in flames)
I hope that this is the end of the places I’ll go so I’ll be with you again
Your beauty consumes me and I’ll wait my whole life just to have you
Just to have you
Won’t you smile for me one more time?