Control

I cruise along and think I’m fine
I feel the waves and the sunshine
I lose myself and feel the tide
I feel your presence at my side
I feel no rush and think I am glad
And yet something still makes me sad
I feel it’s someone else’s stride
And I am just along for the ride
I could be fine and yet I strive
As though I’m tumbling down this endless hole
I know I’d like to lead my life
Feeling that I’m really in control
I will look on as time just flies
Content that I never ever might be whole
I feel so down and yet would rise
But I’m too scared that I might fall
I remember the day I tried
To remove the thorn in my side
I wanted to retain it all
I should have known it was your call
In the end I got it all
Got it all wrong
Much too desperate
To hang on
It was the day I lost it all
Lost it all
It was the day I lost control
Lost control
When I lost control
When I lost control