To Stutter, to Yell

Sweat beating down
Onto your counter
I’m not allowed
To feel it
Arm wrapped around
Your shoulder
Stumble, crying foul
But I did this
I know it’s wrong, but I still go
I don’t like this about myself
I know it’s wrong, but it feels good
To deceive me and deceive you
Where can I hide?
You embarrass me
With my own life
I cower violently
If it’s so wrong, why do I go
Exhausted by my search?
If it’s so wrong, why’s it feel good
To deceive me and forget about you?
My hand on your chest
You held like a ruby
When I didn’t
Callous liminality
Found love so sure, but it’s so sharp
You’ll stay here with me, but I lie alone
If being forgiven makes one flippant
My sin is hesitance
My sin is hesitance
My sin is hesitance