Burnt at Both Ends

Holding hindsight, terrible decisions and blurred days
Not a care at all back then of the man I’d be today
I dug myself a hole
Now the ground’s too far to reach, so it seems
I’m done living this life of contradiction
It makes me scared to know that I portray my life through words you’ve read
(The words you’ve read)
And what good is your heart and the words that you say when you’re dead?
(I have so much left to give)
I’m wasting away, becoming the person I never wanted to be And I won’t let
these things dictate who I am (I'll be the person that you never had)
And what a world I’ve woke to
All of you are so far I’ve been standing still
Because I had it burning at both ends
Burning at both ends for far too long
They made me feel alive, they made me feel whole
Now I’m nothing but alive and far from whole
Walking down the wrong roads, time and time again
I’ve put so much shit into myself, I don’t know how I am standing
I pushed myself from you all
And I have no one else to blame but myself
And this fucking empty shell that I am left with
Lies, I’ve said
I can’t take them back, but I can start over
Not sure if I’m proud of the life I’ve lead
But I am still alive, so I can make a difference
I can make this change
I’m wasting away, becoming the person I never wanted to be And I won’t let
these things dictate who I am
And what a world I’ve woke to
All of you are so far I’ve been standing still
Because I had it burning at both ends
Burning at both ends for far too long
They made me feel alive, they made me feel whole
Now I’m nothing but alive and far from whole
Lies, I’ve said
I can’t take them back, but I can start over
Not sure if I’m proud of the life I’ve lead
But I am still alive, so I can make a difference
I can make this change