Why Can't I Heal?

When I close my eyes at night
All I see is
All of you
I remember
All the times you threw me
To the ground
I remember
All the times you threw me
Against the wall
Why can’t I heal?
Where has life gone?
I remember
All the times you threw me
To the ground
I remember
All the times you threw me
Against the wall
Why can’t I heal?
Where has life gone?
Thinking about all those times I ever felt small
You’d lose your control
I can still feel the thorns in my back
I can still feel the hospital bed